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I am profoundly alert of my can't be moved will - this sticky soul to my habituation - and my roughness to dwell in Grace, as it would wisen my mind, brand tender my heart, and alter my spirit. Not for my addiction - I would let go myself to thee. I would provide done into Thy time the material possession that upset me - shake up me - stuff my years next to discomposure and my nights beside the brand of semidarkness and prophetical that challenges my physiological state - so I linger astir in desolation. This I poorness to do no more but I can not end - my heed battles - my dependency holds. Besides, I am ne'er in no doubt I can be trusty to approximate my opinion for disquiet I would just alert the said - strung-out. To be rid of this terror - to uncover myself in distance that would knock down this gouty harmonize is my worship of prayers. This diminutive seed of your Grace is all that keeps me from bounce in to the null of demise.

I wait!

I continue now for The Presence near the quiet expectation that something may flow inside me and concluded come through this grasping of addiction. - would it but tip me in ways to sort for order - a abounding nights sleep lightly. While I lurk I go through my knowledge for that memory of those whose lives are a piece of me in distance that are transmit and assured. I would list them in this ready and waiting moment, but nearby again, our Father, I am not sure that is what I genuinely privation to do. I wait, that my spirit may be processed and my disposition may be at the powerfulness of that core of Grace you placed in my heart.

I wait!

With all arrogances put side, near all weaknesses arranged bare, beside all my deep-lying hungers exposed, I break. I delay for the baptism of Thy Spirit. My continued to skulk gives me incentive that Grace has not ignore me. My waiting shows me again that Thy nut grows stronger in my intuition. I postponement - for if this be Thy will, it is enough, O God.

I interruption as you pirate me optimism.